I’m broken, but I have to learn how to live. I feel stuck together with scotch tape, like after any breath everything could come apart. If it does, if it all comes undone, I think I’ll fall down and never rise again.
It’s pointless conversations about everything and nothing.
It’s laughing until you cry.
It’s the big things, and small.
It’s the absolute absence of judgement.
It’s perfect imperfection.
It’s these things.
Some days will seem like nights: dark. You’ll have a hard time moving around without bumping into every potential problem you have. You have to learn from these days though, because the things that go on in your mind, the decisions you have to make, the fights that you’ll have with yourself; they’ll all collectively set you free from the person who you used to be.
I no longer have patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me. I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretense, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world of opposites and that’s why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. In friendship I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal. I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement. Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals. And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience.
“…once you have confused them and found their weakness, you crush them… If your crushing is weak, they will be able to rally… if your opponent is inferior to you, or his rhythm has broken… it is essential that you crush him immediately, without letting him catch his breath or even letting him glance at you. It is your primary consideration to not let him recover even a little.”